Well guys..after all my time waiting for this game..I can't bring myself to play it. I'm too depressed to play. My grandma is on her deathbed, seeing her in that condition has sent me into a deep pit of sadness. I probably won't play this game for a long time..If ever again. I love the game really. I don't think there's anything wrong with it. It's just me. I can't play it without breaking down crying..I always feel guilty about it..she's slowly degrading is all I can think about when I play. Maybe I can get back into it again in the future..but I just simply can't do it in this state. The game can only be enjoyed by a happy person..I am far from that. I don't want to make this a goodbye thread..but that seems to be what this is turning out as.

I may be a cold hearted ba**ard, but my grand mother passing away didn't even get me sweating. Let alone any tears shed.

Just put the game on hold until you have your old self back. No sense in trying to force yourself into a game if your emotions aren't up to it.

I feel stupid for even posting this..but for some reason it feels as if it has helped a tiny bit. We obviously don't have the same grandmothers.

Well, if it's any consolation, as an older person here, as you get older you're going to have the privilege of watching your friends and loved ones pass away....

I definitely understand how sharing your feelings can help you feel better, but this really doesn't belong on this forum. I hope things turn out well for you.

Actually, my respects,
But I say atleast try and play a little to get your mind off your grief for awhile....... I am sure your grandma wouldn't want to see you upset or sad anyway, am I right? keep your chin up

Hence why I feel stupid about it. Makes me wonder..will a mod not lock this because they feel bad about it? I guess we'll find out.

There's no rush. Sort yourself out and just play when you feel like playing.
You shouldn't feel guilty, playing video games doesn't relate to your grandmother's illness at all. Find the time for both your grandmother and Skyrim.

I lost my grandpa its apart of life. I love him and miss him also he won't be forgotten but that's for sure not going to take away my life for video games and doing my everyday life. I know he is looking down on me saying everything is alright. Keep you head up I know how it is to lose a love one and also losing my friends at a young age. I'll keep ya in my prayers and your grandma.

Don't rush the game. Play it when you're up to it - you will after a while, trust me.

For now, if you can, spend as much time with your grandmother as you can. It's the greatest gift you can give her at this moment.
You will cherish every moment when she's gone, believe me.

I went through the same thing a few years ago with both grandmother and grandfather (only instead of playing a game, I had to finish college exams - I HAD to soldier on). I went to the hospital very often. And although it was very tough to see them degrading, I took comfort in knowing that they felt happy to see me each time I visited.

Do yourself a favor, go visit your grandma. It will make her happy, and eventually, it will make you happy too. You will have a rough couple of weeks/months, but you will get through them, without a doubt.
Then once you feel better, I suggest you play the game. I'm sure your grandma wants you to have fun too!

Diddo to what most everybody else said. Plus maybe they'll have more of the glitches worked out once you feel up for playing. Good luck with everything

Fera.

First of I send my condolences.

I lost my father last year after my wife and myself nursed him and before that nursed my uncle, who both passed a way within 4 years of each other.

I am in my late 50's and have been an avid gamer for many many years going back to pre zx81, from pen and paper to the now magical digital release of Skyrim.

Gaming is a passion and a pastime, along with my other artistic pastime and I love reading also. But when someone close dies or is dieing or critically ill, then all else seems like a dry tasteless cracker in comparrison for a while.
When my father died in his 80's I was extremely tired after nusring him while fully employed and also the months of work in sorting his belongings out and lots of solicitors and other officialdom to deal with.

Therefore I hardly had any inclination to read, or paint or play my games. Life unfortunately is like that. We have to live through our grief and give vent to our loss. This leaves little else for anything else for a while.

So my advice, forget the gaming for a bit, they will still be there when you are ready. Add your support to other family members who may have lost a mother or sister, auntie etc.
Gaming is not the be and end all of your life and should indeed not be. Go through the mourning process, have a good cry, hell, even now when I pass Dad's old place I get to remenising(sp) (remembering) the long journey we had together in life.

Your priority right now is to your memories of your loved ones those just past or who are passing and those left behind who are also feeling this loss.

Take a break and good luck.

lost my mother unexpectedly a couple of months ago. And I am only twenty-one years old and she was my life... playing a game is not what hurts, but the things that truly matters like, a birthday, gradation, wedding, memories. It seems as though you need a good cry to get your emotions out, its not the game, but its your mind being able to relax and unravel its former defenses so those thoughts come flooding in. You need to deal with them.

Couldn't have said it better myself, put the game down until this passes by. You need to spend time with her as much as you can bear, you have PLENTY of time to play later. My condolences.

The game will be there for you when you want it. You simply have a lot on your plate right now. When you lose someone a bit (or possibly a lot) of yourself changes too. Things never go just back to how they were. A different sort of normal eventually settles in. You never stop missing someone but you learn to live with those feelings, you become used to them. My advice is just do the best you can for everyone around you, get through each day as best you can.

Damn... Just reading this thread makes me tear up. My grandparents are also approaching death, or they have for quite some time. Grandpa is 95 and grandma is 90. It's not a pleasant thought that they will die one day... : (
My grandparents on my mother's side are just 70 and 71 so they still have a long way to go fortunately.

I empathize completely with you man, just take your time and learn to accept it for what it is.

Thank you all for the kind words. Your advice has definitely helped this one. My grandmother just turned 69 not too long ago. She went to the doctor one day and the next day she just started going downhill..all she had was a urinary tract infection which antibiotics cleared up and now some of her vital organs have shut down. It's been 9 days that she has been in the hospital. She can hardly open her eyes, she can't speak because of the pain medicine she's receiving. I hope her passing is painless. Although it may not be painful for her it has definitely been affecting me, my aunts and the rest of the family. She had 27 people at the hospital just for her. I took a train down from colorado to kansas city to see her. I couldn't stay around her long. I let her see me and hear my voice. I just can't handle it. Makes me sad I won't wake up one morning in her house where she's sitting at the table in the kitchen watching Law and Order. Yelling at me or one of my younger cousins. Or eating a whole damn gallon of ice cream in one sitting.(And trust me, she has done it.) She will be greatly missed.

I'm sorry. I know how you feel, I lost my grandmother long time ago.
Take your time and strenght.

*hugs*

Death is a part of life, the end just as birth was the beginning. Most of the human race is dead. They got that way by dying.

All of my relatives are dead. Many of the friends I grew up with, went to school with, are deceased. Presently I will be too.
Be of good cheer. It is much harder to watch relatives die than to die yourself. Most of mine were at peace when the final
moment came. For what it is worth, Steve Jobs last words were "Oh wow. Oh wow. Oh wow."

We feel grief. This is natural. But it is also true that time heals all wounds, including grief.

Google "percent of human race alive" and you will find that starting from 50,000 BC there have been 106 billion people born.

Of those, about 6% are currently alive. Soon, though, we too will all be dead. Welcome to earth and its vasty halls of death.

Feel sorrow that someone dear to you is in the possibly painful process of dying. When they are dead, mourn them until the
funeral. Then arise to a new day, mourn no more and get on with your own life story. Which will include Skyrim.

We are mortals doomed to die. Get used to it. You are going to see plenty and enough of death and then you too will die.
Whatever you may think about it by that time you will have plenty of company. in that grim fate common to us all.

i know how you feel, four years ago my grandma died, cancer, my mum had a stroke and i broke my back all within six months, and it was my first year of high school, i feel into a deep depression, never thought about hurting myself though, i didnt want too do anything or see anybody, there are whole days that i dont even remember, and things that i said that i dont remember but videogames helped me through it, i used them as a escape from the world, when i was playing it didnt matter what really i was happy it was the only time i was happy for about a year, im 18 now,
i really hope you get through this alright, it never worked for me but just doing something like what you have done can help, i was very close too my grandma, she made the best caramel slice, [censored] ive started to tear up a little, and dont feel guilty, its a hard thing your dealing

Thank you..mine made the most godly tuna casserole imaginable..I think she must have put crack in it or something..because even as a little kid I was addicted to it. She went into a hospice tonight...