Recently I mentioned that I have a few years to live (2,3 maximum 4 if I am really lucky) due to a medical condition I have. I am not going to go into detail about what condition it is precisely (you can probably deduce that fairly easy). I am not revealing it because I made a promise not to and it really doesn't matter to the topic at hand.

I want to get a few things out of the way. First of all I am not making this thread in order to receive any pity, attention or support. I don't care about your opinions on anything, let alone my life. There are 2 people which opinions I respect and one of them did the smart thing and left the forums. I am making this thread to show my love towards Dishonored and no matter what happens to show what a video game and a team of great people managed to do.

Also if you are wondering why I am sharing this on the internet it's mostly because I am at this point in my life where I just don't care and nothing is really personal or revealing in any way. I just want to say this so I can get a huge weight off my mind and actually thank thank everyone involved in the creation of Dishonored for making life just a little more bearable.

At the moment the only thing I am actually looking for and find reason to live for is Dishonored. I've always been apathetic and empty inside and that has hurt a lot of people in my life. I am not proud of how I acted and how things came to pass but I am in this situation. Depressed and lonely and all I have to live for is a video game. A bunch of pixels on a computer screen. Of course some might find that pathetic but if I strip everything down to it's core you might want to kill yourself at the sad reality of things.

Everybody in the world gives meaning in something in order for them to value it. I do that all the time with things that don't deserve that level of value and Dishonored is maybe one of them. To tell you the truth after hearing about this game, the idea and the people behind it I wasn't optimistic. I mean I liked Dark Messiah and I adore Harvey Smith as a designer and I absolutely love Viktor Antonov and his work (being a fellow Bulgarian doesn't hurt as well even though he did the smart thing and left) but that doesn't necessarily mean that that they will bring me a solid and high quality product. It doesn't work like that especially in video games.

Of course after hearing about it I did my research because I always strive getting as much information as I possibly can. I was intrigued but still pessimistic. I saw a chance for greatness but also a high chance for failure. Problem was...I didn't want it to fail. Time passed and we didn't hear anything about Dishonored until there came a massive influx of news about the title and I love it! Everything I've read I liked so much I was willing to send my treatment money to Arkane. I do things like that all the time so it wasn't a big deal. I fell in love with the game in a very short period of time and I wanted it to go on like this. It made me excited, it made me joyful and for the first time in years, it made me happy. I was ready for the my most favorite game of all time.

But like with anything good in my life a lot of BAD followed. Speculations and concerns were constantly raised and all of them were hated by me. I even cried at one combination of ideas that would result in Dishonored becoming a very generic title. Things weren't going well so I decided to seek out more and more information and be constantly involved in the forums in order to get that information in the fastest way possible. The result was both good and bad as my condition starting to get worse and reading things that made me fear about the game's future didn't help at all.

One thing I hate absolutely the most is the thought of a sequel. Are you kidding me? Do you realize the very idea of a sequel how [censored] it is? Why would you even think that? We here have a game that has put out so much original new ideas and so much style and hard work and with a story that is presumably well crafted in order to get the best experience out of it and you already want a sequel? Wow, OK let me just tell you one thing. Sequels shouldn't exist. I mean really that would be the best thing ever. But that probably won't happen and Dishonored will receive a sequel and not be a standalone original IP of greatness that I want it to be.

Since this post is getting really long I would like to say this: Thank you Arkane, thank you Harvey, thank you Vik and thank you everyone who is supporting this game. I can't imagine a more perfectly crafted game for me. I know that even if the game isn't all that good I still have a lot of love and respect both for it and the people behind it. You have amazing taste people, thank you for being awesome. I also mentioned that if it is really THAT amazing as I think it's going to be then I will tattoo The Outsider's mark on my left hand (just like Corvo's) and I will make an animated musical video of Edgar Allan Poe's 'The Raven' starring Corvo himself. I am absolutely serious about this and I want to show the amount of love and dedication I have for Dishonored.

I would appreciated it if you do not comment on this topic and just hear me out. It's purely subjective for the most part so please don't take it too seriously. If this thread only takes up space and is seen as redundant then I don't have any issue with it being taken down from the site. I hope the good people over at Arkane get to see what they have done for me and why great craftsmanship and artwork can do for the soul. I hope I get through this big rut I am in at the moment and I do hope everyone appreciates the kind words towards them.