It felt as if I was leaving a best friend. A companion. Someone who has been there for me when no one else was, when I was in very bad and dark points in my life, I always had WoW. I always had my online friends. I always had my amazing character with the best gear you could get. That was my success. That was my victory. But no more. No more will I delude my life and my mind with the mindset of that's all I have. Because it's not all I have.
I recently got engaged, I got my iife on track. As some of you may know, the expansion Mist of Pandaria for WoW was coming out, it came out today in fact. I logged on for the first time in 4 months today. I logged on, sat in Orgrimmar and Stormwind. I watched the hundreds of not thousands of people flying around and talking, and that feeling of "I have got to play this again" sat in. But, I fought it. I said no, I will not do this with my life. I am saving for a MARRIAGE. How could I purposely and habitually decide to play a video game for 5 hours a day again? How can I do this to myself?
The answer is, I cannot. I went to battle.net, disabled my account, made a fake email address and changed my account info, copy and pasted a password I shall never remember into the change password bar, hit enter, and watched as the page loaded saying "password changed!" and tears entered my eyes. I'm free. I can never go back, to my victory. My life ended, yet began, at that moment.
Some might call me pathetic. I call myself a hero. Because I just did what 9 million others cannot do. I know that this thread may seem belittling to those who DO play, and that is not my intention. But for 4 years of my life, four years, this game has enthralled my person and my being to the point of absurdity. I am done. I am moving on. And yes, that's freaking hard, and if you don't know anything about addiction, you don't have any idea what I'm talking about.