I'm not really sure why this is, i do know that i feared it my whole life and avoided numbers like the plague, i did not keep up in any of my maths classes in any year of school, it probably took me a day or two to start lagging behind everyone else at the beginning of each year and after that i was always out of step, miles behind and completely lost.
It is true that i had a couple of pretty bad math teachers when i was at school, one with an accent so heavy i could understand every third word he said and he was there for three years, but that didn't stop at least half the class from passing their tests, and it hasn't meant that i started understanding maths on my own, so the problem is very obviously mine, for whenever i have tried to do maths it has been like butting my head against an invisible barrier, or walking into a gym and trying to lift the heaviest weights there, i find it utterly impossible.
Now in my advlt years I'm starting to wonder if perhaps i am mentally deficient in some way, my use of english is of a decent standard, and i was always described as intelligent but exasperating to teach by my teachers because of my constant day-dreaming, having won various literature and poetry prizes i surprised them and myself often in that department, and so they believed as a result that i could and should achieve things in other areas like maths that frankly i don't think i was capable of, and it made them angry when i failed to meet their expectations, and it made me lose confidence.
I left school with most of the teachers seeing me as a lost cause, and the reason i put this here is because i would like to ask you guys if you think maths is a subject that can be learned, or if it is a skill that requires some natural talent at least to begin with.
I know there are methods for improving your memory, a million and one ways to learn how to socialise, organise and manage your time, and many other self-help manuals on anything from delivering better speeches to overcoming fears, but are there any ways for a hopeless case like me to start to learn maths, is it in my capability? what if years of avoiding maths have shrunk my brain in that department? i hear that if you leave a skill unused it just shrivels away, perhaps this has happened to me.
Anyone know of a way i can start maths from scratch at my own snail like pace? or is it a hopeless case that is best left alone?
