I was just told a few hours ago and I don't know what to do. When my mom died I was only about 6 or 7, so I didn't learn anything about coping. I didn't even realize she was dead and skipped around at her [censored] funeral.

It just doesn't make sense. He went to the hospital because his [censored] ankles were swollen, and he was absolutely healthy, happy, and ready to go home just a [censored] day before his heart supposedly stopped. I'm 18, so I don't have a career or anything to focus on. I even temporarily dropped out of college because of depression issues.

It just can't be true. None of it makes sense. None of it. He was slated to go to physical rehab for two weeks. Why did he [censored] die? The doctors don't even know, they're looking into it. Did the hospital give him some [censored] pain drug? None of it makes any sense. You don't just drop dead in a [censored] hospital because of ankle swelling. The doctors made sure it wasn't a blood clot that caused the swelling. They thought it was just an excess of synovial fluid. Does that [censored] kill people? How does any of this make [censored] sense?

No words can really help you with this, but try talking with your family if your on ok terms with them, any aunts or uncles? Immediate family or family friends?

Any friends to talk too, you know anyone with medical knowledge maybe they can find out.

Im sorry man, Id probably be just the same way if something like that were to happen with my folks.