i dont understand how people say the vampire is so awesome, whereas to me it a big letdown.
You don't really need to understand.
There's plenty of crap I don't understand. Like ridiculous immersion mods that track your f'ng carbs and protein, like smelters in basemants, like 20-year old girls with 4 kids, like computers that perform slower than me, like how Excel's clipboard clears itself whenever it feels like, and like people who don't understand how playing a vampire is fun. Would understanding it help me? Nope. It is the way it is and none of it affects my life, so I don't necessarily *want* to understand.
You don't like playing a vampire. End of story.