Since my brother's dead, I always out of my mind. I really.. miss him..
I was really closed person, rarely talk to anyone. Even with my own family, except my twin brother. He's the only person I ever shared much. I can told my stories, my feeling, just with him. I love him so.
He was joined this forums since may, if I'm not mistaken. His surname is HanShield. He was likely like a girl in this forums. Her name is Klawed Flaw (I'm sorry I'm too frontal, but it's for my brother's sake) it's been a while since I saw him smile like that. I glad he was really happy. That was attract me to this forums. I was used his account, joined him together, before I recently created this account.
But.. he was dead at the near end of July last month. Since then, I really desperated. Never talk to anyone.
And today, my parents got argued, and I yelled at them.. Tell them to stop.. I never mean to hurt their feeling.. I just out of my mind.. Now my mother crying because of me.. I hurt her feeling..
I don't know what should I do.. I always like this since his dead.. :'(

My condolences for the loss of your brother. I can understand that you have not been yourself since he died, and so will your parents. Apologise to your mother, and explain her you didn't want to hurt her feelings and try to comfort her. It will make you and your mother both feel better. You will need each to get over this tragedy for the coming period.
I hopevyou all feel better soon.

Death of somebody close can be hard. I've only lost one close person, but I moved on. I thought I did, but my dreams kept hounding me and he kept coming back when I slept. I'd wake up and forget that he was dead sometimes. I still sometimes walk into my bedroom, see his candle, gaze into it and realize all over again he's gone.

The best thing you could probably do is talk to someone, but I know that's not everyone's cup of tea.(it isn't mine) Since I couldn't talk to anyone, I had to rely on religion instead.

I would probably recommend getting some alone time, possibly in your bedroom or something and reflect upon everything. Try to come to terms with it. It will take years before you actually do, but I found solitude to be a good friend.

Over the past few months I've been mantling my relative. Most of my clothes are his since I barely had any, and in some situations, I think "what would he do?" He was most known for his bright yellow jacket, it's what he's always worn. It's the thing that stood out most about him. I wear it now and it seems to help me cope.


I'm sure your parents would understand, with what has just happened. Tell them you are feeling lots of things right now and that it is overwhelming. It really is.

I'm also realy sorry for your brother.

Here's an advice. Don't speak to us about it. I know it's easier to tell us these things than to people you actually know, but we won't solve anything. Find some good friends if you have any that you're real close with, or talk to your parents. It'll be much easier if you talk it out.

I lost my older brother last year. Your parents are going to "fight" alot of awhile, it's natural. Your mom is going to cry alot as well. I don't believe you caused her to cry, believe me she has alot of reasons to cry and you yelling at her isn't high on the reasons list. It's tough and it will be for a long time. Just talk to them and other family memebers.

Now is the time to open up to them.

aw svcks.. I'm crying again..
Yeah.. I tried to apologized to them, but it seems they not forgive me :'(

Really, thank you so much.
I never really had a close friend before. And this is my first forums. And.. I don't know to whom I should tell my feelings. Did I wrong post this in this forums? I really really apologize is this not allowed in here

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