In an instant, we turned from being so close to being so far apart. Pretty sure she hated me, and never wanted to talk to me ever again.
I wanted to apologize, eventhough I knew that it wasn't 100% my fault. I am not denying that I have my flaws too, however I felt that it's unfair if I took all the blame. Regardless, I decided to just give in and be the first to say sorry.
But saying sorry wasn't enough.
I came back to Malaysia, and I started writing this song right away. I locked myself in the control room at the studio... like I was being possessed by some insane spirit, I worked on the song non-stop. 8 hours later, I had with me a fully completed song, with drums sequenced by me, and all of the bass and guitars and synths played by me as well.
I then spent the next 4 hours doing the vocals and finally mixing and polishing it for a final production.
Took the song home and started working on the lyrics video right away. Took about 3 hours.
The result that you're about to hear was something that I did for almost 15 hours, NON STOP, without food and water. Some people might think this is really stupid but... love can do crazy things to a man.
We're still not as close as we used to be, and she's still avoiding me as much as possible. It's difficult because we are both in bands in the local scene, and we bump into each other A LOT at our shows and venues. And everytime we do, we almost always fight.
However, things have cooled down a little... she promises that she will try to fix things for both of us, she says it's going to take a long time. I used to keep telling her how she hates me, and she's deny it... but everytime I want to hear an answer, we always get distracted by something, and by the end of the day, it's always the same: things would be left hanging, everything would remain unanswered. And this would go on for months. But after the last recent conversations with her... I can tell in her eyes that I still have a place in her heart, but something is confusing her...
So I'd just like to share this song with you. It totally broke my heart that this song had to be created... I did NOT like at all every single second I went through to finish this... but hopefully my story will inspire anyone out there who's looking to create something for their special someone.
You may hate the song, and that's totally fine. I wrote it from my heart and that's all that matters.

Enjoy (or don't).

Click here --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zucOSrv2XyA