» Fri May 04, 2012 1:01 am
I should have done more. I should be dead, not him.
Quirinus closed his eyes.
Not her.
There he was again, back in the streets of Imperial City. It was raining as he entered the alley he called home. He pushed asided the decaying clothe of his tendt, and there she was, Maeoni. She was as beautiful as ever, her soft grey skin obscured by dirt and her eyes a deep, almost royal red.
She smiled, and hugged him as soon as she saw him.
Where were you, I was so worried.
It's okay, it's okay.
By the Nine, your're hurt.
Quirinus noticed a coppery taste in his mouth, he was bleeding.
It's nothing, some men were going try to hurt us, but I stopped them.
Why do you always have to fight? Why can't you just run away.
I love you, I don't know what I would do without you. Of course I fight.
Stop being so selfish.
What?
You're not the only person who would be hurt if you die, Quirinus. I care about you, the other beggars care about you. This... this crusade of your's is going to hurt other people Quirinus. People you care about.
Someone has to tell these gangs that we will just take their abuse and attacks. Can't you understand?
Why you though? This can only end in tears Quirinus. You can't win.
I have to fight these gangs, no one else will. Everyone else is too scared. The guards just look the other way. They have bigger things to worry about than us.
We are alone. I'm sorry, but I have to.
Maeoni pushed him away.
Leave.
What?
Just go, if you are going to kill yourself, then you can do it alone.
But.
I love you, but I can't watch you do this.
I...
I love you too.
Quirinus walked away.
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Quirinus woke up.
He knew what happened that night. Maeoni was attacked and left for dead, and it was his fault. If he hadn't tried to fight the gangs, she would have been alive. They would never have went after him.
She was right, I can't do this anymore.
He ripped off his plate mail and threw it into the forest, he grabbed his shield, and tossed it into the nearby river.
He then took his sword. He stared at it, and cried.
This is it then, you helped me through many terrible times, but I don't need you anymore.
Quirinus was about to turn it on himself, when he heard a voice behind him.
What are you doing?
Quirins turned around, and he saw Belan before him.
Belan? Belan, you're alive?
No, no. I'm dead. But it's okay, my ancestors have allowed me this meeting.
I see now that I was a fool, and you were a fool to follow me. I was doomed from the moment I entered Morrowind.
What?
And now, you are being a fool. Don't pervert our memory by throwing away who you are.
I have hurt everyone I ever met! You, Maeoni, everyone!
No, no Quirinus, you saved me. You saved me from myself at Red Mountain. If hadn't been for you, I would have burned there alone with the Sixth House. No, you pulled me out of there.
But because of that, you had to watch the destruction of your home.
And I would not have had it any other way. That moment define me, it gave me purpose again. Don't give up. Know that I watch you, and that Maeoni watches you, and we are proud.
Belan faded away into dust, and disappeared on the wind.
Quirinus turned to the morning sun, and saw the smoke from a nearby town.
Maybe I won't die today.
He got up, and put on his cloak, and started walking towards the town.