I'm not sure what's going on with me. My SAT scores indicate I'm pretty well-rounded in my capabilities (math, reading, and writing all being right at or only away by 10 points from a score of 660 in each section) and I do well in nearly all my courses from physics, to biology, to history, to government and politics, to English, to French, to health sciences, etc. being at AP levels for each, but certain math courses sometimes give me trouble. For example, I did terribly at calculus this past semester. In sharp contrast, all my other AP classes had scores in the 90s. It makes me wonder, because I'm also pretty good at math (SAT, physics, ability to calculate mentally), but when it comes to actual courses, at least in the case of calculus, I struggle a bit. It's only calculus, really, but math has been, throughout high school, my weakest subject (though that's not saying much considering the high grades I typically get and have as a standard)... just calculus was the one where it all came crashing down. Maybe it's, to some degree, a failure to properly accumulate certain skills. I do have a tendency to doze off in math courses.

Seriously, though, it's not that I'm necessarily incapable of doing these things. I do have an inherent ability to calculate and perform mathematical operations quite well, but math courses are just incredibly boring and uninteresting (can usually find some intrigue in practically every other subject area, but math is just so asininely boring) and I find it difficult to invest myself into the courses... then again, maybe I'm just lazy. In fact, I am lazy, but when I absolutely hate the content of a course and realize it's literally useless to me (again, I can calculate... pretty good at mental calculations and math up to a certain point, but I can't think of a single logical reason why I, a hopeful premed/biology major going into the medical field, will ever need the overwhelming majority of crap taught in calculus, yet I still take the course...), I just don't really pay much attention to it. I should because I care about the result and the reverberations, but I just can't. It's boring. If it were a 3D Graphics programming class, I may be more invested in all the numbers and the like going into it as I see a relevant result to my video gaming hobby. In fact, when I did once take a microrobotics programming courses, I did have more fun with it than calculus, but calculus and other advanced math courses... the content svcks, the teachers are uninteresting (they choose math-teaching as a lifelong pursuit... can't be that interesting), and I just hate it... can't wait to leave and get to an interesting course.
Anyway, my point is I usually do well in all subjects, but math has consistently caused me the most issues and my calculus score was just bad, period, in sharp contrast to all else I've done. I'm not trying to boast, but I'm typically quite articulate and capable of writing some really meticulous anolytical essays based on given reading, I have a penchant for historical and biological study and enjoyment, I can find a genuine interest in psychology/health sciences, I get involved in Government and Political science courses, and to a degree, I enjoy physics and chemistry, but math has always been weaker interest, though I don't lack the capacity to do well in math courses. I do, however, lack certain creative capacity. I love music (look forward the orchestral soundtrack of a good game as a prime feature, even) and I can write, but actually forming stories or doing anything with physical interpretation of art (drawing, painting, sculpting, etc.), though something I admire and aspire to be able to do, just aren't things I'm very good at on a base level, it seems. Those and social skills are probably my Achilles heel (sorry about the calculus rant

) while math is more simply a victim of disinterest and revilement, on my part.