Its been a long time sinceive done anytnphing with friends and weeks since ive actually felt like i belonged with anyone. I keep trying ti reach out to tbem but they keep pushing me away or ignoring me. Part of me wantx to attempt suicide tonight or just get drnk or od or something. I cant take sitting by myself staring at a blank screen or moving thru life when no one cares...I just want the pain to stop...... I look around and see all my friends out having a good time without me or with someone they love and i dont have anything lke that...
I dont even knowmwhy im posting this, i just need this to stop either to get out of this hole or to die