Here's what happen to me.
After he help many people and serve the Imperial army he felt proud, happy but guilty and sad because of all the people he had slain in battle in the civil war. He felt that one day someone is going to lose one of their's family member if he continue to fight so he decided to pack way is armor, weapens and any from of death and destruction.
Even he pact his stuff away, he still afriad that someone will claim his life but even one thing he's afriad of.....his soul being trap and being send to
Spoiler
after the death of his.The soul cairn
He been to Sovngarde and Tsan promise him that one day he will arrive as a hero.
Everynight he dream of the face of the people he killed and he think about the conversation that he talk to Hadvor about the life they had taken before they charge into battle.
The dragonborn promise himself that never to take life or use any of his power for any reasons and he decided to retired at Solitude. He liked to travel from city to city to visit his friends and pay his respect to the people that died along side with him.
This is the story of my James the Honourable.
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