» Sun Mar 06, 2011 7:35 pm
Heh, Lily was my third favourite, after Arcade and Raul. I really did not like Boone at all. As a writer of questionable merit, I found him to be too stone cold for my tastes, too much of a Jean-Claude van Damme wannabe. It's fine for the mainstream yokels, but it really didn't work for me at all. I just wanted to see him get drunk at some point, break down, and laugh bitterly before crying out his pains. There's no life to the man, he doesn't make you believe or feel his story at all. He's a bit pathetic, really. *shrugs.* As always with opinions, your mileage will almost certainly vary to a quantifiable degree.
As for Lily, I found her interesting. Perhaps it's because I'm a bit of a psychology geek, but she's a fascinating character. There's so much pain to her, really, she's suffered so much, she's lived through and seen so much, it makes Boone's loss look laughable by comparison. She lost her family, her vault, she even lost her bleeding identity, her face, and she clings to humanity by a thread. The whole grandma thing is an act borne of that. And I'll try and explain where I'm coming from, so stick with me and be prepared for a wall of pseudo-intellectual fappery. That should've scared most people off, so I'll continue.
Lily... not sure how to begin conveying my feelings here, really. But I think there's much more of her there than she lets on. There is much more of her mind present than one might admit. This is something that old Doc Henry hints at in a bit of dialogue, but I hadn't heeded it much or given it a chance to percolate until I'd really spent some time with her. She's a really endearing character, who has a heart of gold despite all that she has to deal with, but there's so much to her, there are layers. Let me ask you: If you were to lose your face, and you ended up looking like a monster, how would you deal with it? Everyone has their own way, every person would find their own way.
And in the case of our endearing blue-skinned stealthy super mutant, she puts on an act. It's all an act, and I do believe she's aware that it is an act, but it's one that she needs. You see, she plays into the idea of what she might be to the person she's talking to, it's disarming, endearing even. You have this nightkin who was once a kindly grandma, and you'd expect it to be a bit confused. It's how she makes herself look harmless, and it's a way for her to get close to people and connect with them. Moreover, the act is a different way to weave the image of a kindly grandma into the minds of those who speak with her. She can't really do it by appearance so much any more, so she has the act. She acts as though you're one of her children, and you can't help but feel sorry for her, and in that moment you look past her being a nightkin.
She needs that act because it helps her feel human, when she puts on the act, people look at her and treat her differently. It's hard to see a nightkin when she's acting like that, and you begin to see the person beneath the face, you get an idea of what she's really like. She really is a kindly old lady, but she has to go to such incredible lengths to express this to you, since most people are rather closed-minded, when they see a super mutant or a nightkin, they expect a vicious brute, they expect a challenge, for the average man, I suspect the very sight of a super mutant is a challenge. So Lily does this, she dresses herself up, she tries to make herself small, and she puts on this act. And to a degree, it actually really does work.
Through the act, she begins to feel human again, like she's part of something, as though she has a family, a place in the world, and so she's valued by those whom at least look a little like the people she once knew. I think the act allows her to feel alive. And similarly, Leo is another act, or more an excuse, it's so hard for her to deal with being a nightkin, and to stay relatively sane the only thing she could do was create a gestalt like Leo to try and excuse her actions when she has a fit. It wasn't something she did, it was something Leo convinced her to do. It's how she rationalises a new, violent side that she never had before becoming a nightkin.
Because of all this, I find her a fascinating character. She might seem simply like a psychopathic nightkin who's so insane that it believes it's a kindly grandma at first, but that's simply closed-mindedness at work, isn't it? That's how narrowly we perceive the world around us. We are very limited in how we can look at things, but Lily puts in such an effort to be human, to seem human. That's why I find a certain sadness to her, there's a sense of loss there that none of the other characters can match up to. And by comparison, I feel nothing from Boone, you get so little of his pain or that anything drives him. He's just given up. Unlike Lily, he doesn't try. That's why contrary to most in this thread, I really dig Lily but I find Boone to be just a bit pathetic and washed up.