» Thu Jun 07, 2012 9:27 am
I don't know, by the time I got to the point where the question of killing Paarthurnax came up, seemed pretty clear to me that I was doing more for the Blades than the other way around.
Delphine deliberately interfered in my training with the Greybeards in order to force a meeting designed to recruit me for her own purposes. She was so convinced that the Thalmor were behind the dragons' return that she had me risk *my* life trying to get information that didn't exist. Yes, it led to the discovery that Esbern was still alive, but that was an unexpected bonus that we wouldn't have gotten if I hadn't gone snooping around for stuff she didn't bother to mention or even suspect might be there. She's supposedly killed off I don't know how many Thalmor assassination squads, but sends me off unassisted to find and bring him back safely while she hides out in Riverwood. I'm a complete stranger to him, but it's left up to me to convince him I can be trusted and that I'm Dragonborn when she could serve as an eyewitness to that fact. And even though Esbern knew the location of Alduin's Wall, that would've been useless to the Blades if I hadn't been able to open the seal at the temple with a sacrifice of my own blood.
They can't offer me any help with learning Dragonrend other than to grudgingly admit that I'll probably have to ask the Greybeards about it. The only way they can rebuild themselves as a fighting force of any kind is for me to find and bring them new recruits, because despite being these supposedly fearsome peeps they can't be arsed to leave the temple on account of the Thalmor might come after them. That being the same Thalmor that have been after me and dying by my hand on a regular basis while I was out running their errands.
The Greybeards don't require anything of me after naming me Dovahkiin - they only seek to provide counsel when called upon to give it. They don't expect me to commit to their way of thinking and living, they don't make any demands, they only advise me to be mindful of the power I have and how I use it. They make it possible for me to meet Paarthurnax for the express purpose of learning (or learning about) a shout that they themselves don't know and are wary of, at the behest of a faction that despises them and all they stand for.
Their whole attitude is, "you are who are you, live well and choose wisely."
The Blades' attitude is, "you have something we don't and you'll do what we want with it or get lost."
When all is said and done, I feel no remorse for using the Blades exactly the way they intended to use me. I got what I needed from them, and when they were no longer useful and their demands became repugnant, I waved a cheery "buh-bye" and left them to stew in their own juices. I feel bad about Esbern, and wish I'd had the option to at least try and convince him to come around on the Paarthurnax issue... a convo between him and P. would've been utterly awesome to witness, IMO. Delphine, on the other hand, can bite me.