Anyone else had any moments in Skyrim that left them feeling like a soulless [censored]?

I've been roleplaying a powerhungry mage who's never taken a life and is quite afraid of combat. He heard about the Ogma Infinium, a book that could bring him to the level of power that he is after.
aka I'm exploiting the glitch and maxing out magic

He knew he couldn't brave Afland alone, so he went to Whiterun and hired the first person who was willing to help. Janessa.

She helped him through the ruins. He hid behind her while she took down any threat. He didn't lift a finger. He owed his life to her. Eventually, they both made it back to that mage guy, who informed me that I needed all the mer blood. My character, afraid that Janeesa would eventually betray him, and subconsciously realizing that she would be a convenient source of Dunmer blood, betrayed her outside of the mage's outpost and killed her with his bare hands. His first kill.

Realizing that luring followers to isolated areas and killing them was a quick and easy way to obtain all the blood he needed, he went to Riverwood to recruit the Bosmer.

Then the courier came. It was a letter from Jarl Balgruuf, informing me that Janeesa had included me in her will, she left me 300 gold pieces.

"... May this lawfully bestowed inheritance prove as a reminder of your enduring faith in one another..."



Anything similar happen to you guys?

Hmm, as I recall one day I saved the game and started on a killing spree from town to town, had couriers running up to me stopping me from killing just to get a real lousy gold inheritance. 100k gold, and their bringing me this measly amount. Too bad I couldn't kill them too.

I feel bad everytime I kill that priest for the Molag Bal quest. Poor dude.

Lol, well he is a worshiper of Boethiah, he knows what violence is all about. I don't mind killing him in the slightest.

you monster.

"I dare do all that may become a man, who dares more is none."

killing narfi

Nope. Because if I'm gonna feal bad about something, I make sure I don't do it. Can always come back and do it again later. There's a fair number of quests I'm simply not doing.

Then again "he / she was evil" or "I'm working for a higher cause" is a very broad and easy justification. For example

Unless you mean specific orcs then i believe it was malacath they worship wasn't it?

No. If I feel bad about it I don't do it.

Stuff you have to do for trophies, well I get it over with.
And take the least horrible options possible.

I felt bad the entire time doing the hideous thieves guild quests.

I deliberately failed the stealing from Madesi quest. Took it the ring out, put it back in.

I took the route that hurt Keerava least and was shortest for the others. I beat up Haelga and Barsi. So by the time I got to Keerava, she handed the cash over.
Actually did'nt feel too bad about punching Haelga, she's a b**ch.

And I spent the rest of the time doing burgeries to avoid any extra nastiness.

For the deadric weapons trophy I had to kill Erandur. Felt bad about that, but I won't be doing it again.

I have no problem doing the rest of the deadric quests. Feel a bit bad about having to kill Silus Vessius. But not enough to not do it.
Killing the priest for Malog Bol, no problem.
I saved Sinding. Hircines ok with it, so no reason not to. And killing him is'nt such a bad thing from serving Hircine view. He did steal the ring and Hircine rewards you for doing it.
But saving him is better. I felt a bit bad for killing him when I did. And wearing his skin is a bit creepy.

Orcs worship Malacath. Unless they're random orcs or specific ones, worshiping someone else.

I only feel bad whenever I kill one of my followers by accident - i.e. an accidental swipe of the ebony sword or too much lightning in the wrong place. Otherwise, I don't do quests I don't want to.

I wouldn't have killed her.
You'd be suprised how fast you get all the blood samples without even trying. I had them all within a day of playing without even trying. Bandit camps and dungeons always have all different races.

The only thing that made me feel bad was killing Barbas for the Rueful Axe. I didn't want to do it but I really wanted that axe over the masque. Turns out it was a big mistake seeing the axe isn't counted as a deadric artifact which keeps you from obtaining the Oblivion Walker trophy.

When I executed General Tulius even after he had surrendered.

You do realize this is make believe right? It's only a video game. No different from any other game. These days just about every game is about killing or something violent.
If I have to kill something in a game to get something cool, so be it. Why feel guilty over something that isn't real? Or why buy a game that your going to skip half the quests in because of your conscience?
And besides, if you start a new game, all those people or animals you felt bad about killing are alive again! lol

The one and only moment ever was when I played out of role: I went into two Stormcloak camps for the sole purpose of filling up 23 empty black soul gems.

Those were murders and I still feel like a jerk.

That's nothing to feel bad about

Stealing the Eyes of the Falmer.
It made me feel so bad, that I ended up going back to Irkngthand to return the gems. Since I couldn't put the eyes back into the Statue's eye sockets, I left them with a dead Falmer who was still floating in the water there. I'm still feeling horrible about this actually, because we ended up destroying the only known visual representation of the Snow-elves. Stealing something of such sentimental value was wrong on so many levels, that I will definitely avoid this quest in possible future play throughs.

Killing Narfi ranks high on my list as well.

I also initially killed off Aerin after marrying Mjoll the Lioness by making him attack a guard while Mjoll wasn't around to witness it. I mean who does he think he is, moving into my house unvited! I felt so guilty however, that I loaded an earlier save and now try to make sure he feels welcome eventhough he isn't... >_>

OMG yea, that is definitely a lousy kill, I agree! Or sacrificing a follower to Boethia. At least I just chose some Orc, who was willing to follow me, still made me feel sad though.

I think the worst one though that made me sick, was the Namira quest... I usually avoid that one now and/or kill Eola. lol

Just found something that got me right to the core. Playing as an assassin I just found ! Ouch. I need to go home and think about that...

I'd put off doing those two quests for the longest time, finally did them so I could get the Oblivion Walker achievement. Stopped playing the character immediately afterwards because I didn't like her any more.

I have often picked the most horrible options available in the game, did all my evil quests, and commited hundreds of murders. Yet the only thing I felt kinda bad about was Tova Shatter-Shield commiting suicide after I assassinated her only living daughter for the Dark Brotherhood. And even then, I got my extra reward for killing Nilsine, even though it was only a lousy ring.

It was at the end of the Imperial Legion quest line when you fight Galmar and Ulfic.

Despite our ideological differences, I had planned on giving them an honorable battle. If anyone would put my newly smithed dragonbone armor to the test, it would be the renowned Galmar Stonefist. No doubt the man would fight like a cornered bear, and much glory would be won. Unfortunately, my Dremora Lord escorts did not share my high ideals. In one fluid motion, a Dremora drew his greatsword and effortlessly swiped Galmar's head off.

Killing Maro's son during the DB quest. No big deal, in and of itself, but as you walk up to the outpost you overhear him telling his son to be safe. And then I read the note on his body

Probably wouldn't be as big a deal if I didn't have a son myself.

During the quest you need to intimidate innkeeper in Riften, you essentially threaten to kill her family. I even tried to make it up by helping her boyfriend, still no joy...