Whenever I am angry, I don't get explosive or destructive. I get very dark, very cold, to the point of an almost nuclear chill. I absolutely TERRIFY people when I am angry, because they fear I might kill them... For good reason. I myself have to wonder sometimes, if I am capable of doing such a thing.
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You and me both. I don't really become enraged; the angrier I am, the calmer I get.
On that subject, an anecdote. I was a senior in high school, and had suffered through four years of merciless tormenting by a single individual. Let us call him Meat.
Meat was easily twice my size, male, and a football player. I know, I know: dear god, what a cliche.
Anyway, I ran the gamut with this guy- from verbal harassment (usually consisting of racial or sixual slurs) to having my things stolen or vandalized, to being shoved or tripped when walking past him. I don't know why the hell he singled me out as his personal object of ridicule, but it did not a happy teenagerdom make (yes, I know 'teenagerdom' isn't a word; thank you).
And the school did absolutely nothing to stop him. I can't count the number of times I asked (begged, really) them to make him stop- they just either waved it off or said they'd look into it. Nothing ever happened.
Anyway. It was the last day of school before spring vacation, a few minutes before I was to catch my bus ride home. I was crouched on the sidewalk, watching an interestingly-patterned caterpillar inch its way across the concrete. I was so engrossed in this activity that I didn't realize he was standing behind me until he planted his shoe into the small of my back and shoved. I pitched off the edge of the sidewalk and into the gutter. It had rained recently, so the hand I put out to stop my fall went out from under me (earning a nasty scraqe in the process) and I smacked my chin against the pavement, hard enough that I saw stars. My glasses fell off.
Something inside me snapped.
I stood up, slowly, and turned around, hugging my scraqed hand to my chest. I felt... still. My mind was calm and perfectly clear.
I told him, in no uncertain terms, not to touch me again. He deliberately reached out, placed his hand on my chest, and shoved as hard as he could.
Meat, alas, didn't know that I've been taking Aikido classes since I was ten. I'd never been pushed far enough that I'd actually use them (except in practice, and never seriously); not until that moment.
It was after school hours, and he'd put his hands on me after I had expressly told him not to, in front of witnesses.
I don't really remember much of what happened next, except that he was suddenly on the ground, I was sitting on top of him, and I had just put all of my weight into a knifehand strike to his throat. A friend of mine told me later that I'd slammed my elbow into his abdomen and flipped him clear over my shoulder. I wish to god I could remember doing that. He was twice my size, remember? It would have been my crowning moment of glory. ;3;
Anyway, like some of the other people on this thread, I had to be pulled off him, though I recall not resisting much. I was buzzed on so much adrenaline that I had tunnel vision.
And apparently I scared the ever-loving crap out of my schoolmates, because they said later that I hadn't said a word the entire time. I'd just walked up to him calmly, proceeded to lay into him with everything I had, and the entire time, I was just... smiling. Placidly.
I was still smiling even after someone hauled me to my feet.
Apparently my smile still makes people nervous. Oh ho ho.
A couple of people said they thought I was going to rip his throat out. With my teeth. :3
Might have had something to do with the fact that I bared my teeth at the person who was holding me, and snarled at them.
No, seriously.
I did get in trouble, mind you, considering I was actively trying to pulp Meat's esophagus. He was in the hospital for a day and was spectacularly black-and-blue for a couple of weeks after that.
Not serious trouble, because legally I had the right to defend myself. But.... yanno.
I would say that fits the bill as 'second angriest I've ever been in my life'.
