Mental Disorders : Othor Games

» Sun May 13, 2012 12:39 pm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6vLAa-kylM

More seriously though, I used to get angry very fast when I was younger. Sort of like a stick of dynamite with a short fuse. Everything is fine, until I suddenly just snapped and went over-the-top. Chairs were thrown and such, but I usually hurt myself more than anyone / anything else. I'm very peaceful nowadays.

» Sun May 13, 2012 7:13 am

My life svcks. That's it. I've been in this [censored] for years. No friends, no skills, just huddled up doing useless nonsense like reading books or playing games. I wish I could tell about my situation better but I can't. I have never told ANY problems of mine to ANYONE. EVER. At best it has been subtle hinting. All that stuff in me, the bullying, the lack of good company, the "friends" using me as a scapegoat and a money source, getting called names when I walk school hallway, the nights listening to my mom getting beaten by her drunk boyfriend, all that [censored] I'm sick of it.

A few things to consider:
- Your situation is not unique. It is actually quite common. There are many, many other people in the same boat. This is a good thing because it means you're not, in fact, alone.
- Did you ever consider that the reason you are so different to the people around you might be because you are better than them? People who are unusually intelligent, creative or perceptive do tend to get bullied and treated as an outsider. Perhaps this is you, and those other people are simply not smart enough to understand you.
- A therapist is like a best friend. A smart one who knows a lot about an awesome topic (psychology), which you get to discuss with them. I'd recommend therapy to pretty much everyone, regardless of whether they have a 'problem' or not.

» Sun May 13, 2012 10:12 am

^^ What Big Z here says ^^

As well as that other thing I said

» Sun May 13, 2012 4:29 am

My life svcks. That's it. I've been in this [censored] for years. No friends, no skills, just huddled up doing useless nonsense like reading books or playing games. I wish I could tell about my situation better but I can't. I have never told ANY problems of mine to ANYONE. EVER. At best it has been subtle hinting. All that stuff in me, the bullying, the lack of good company, the "friends" using me as a scapegoat and a money source, getting called names when I walk school hallway, the nights listening to my mom getting beaten by her drunk boyfriend, all that [censored] I'm sick of it.

no one deserves that [censored] and it makes me angry to hear that someone has to go through it without having done anything to get into the situation.
i'm not joking when i say i that you have my empathy.
i don't know about giving advices, because i think the best advices are those you can find by yourself. but distractions. keep yourself busy with something, force yourself to focus on something constructive. something you can work with. and as someone else said, you can say what's on your mind here since you basically are anonymous anyway. i would recommend you only talk if you feel it can be of any help to you, though.
i hope things get better for you anyway.

» Sun May 13, 2012 1:38 pm

Ratslayer, you bring good points and I agree. I do not think that I have a particularly good reason to plot suicide - there is no good reason. However I simply do not like living. I do not recognize reality. Escaping the evils in my life required building a personal world where I am the only way. But it has shattered. I am slowly returning to reality and I am shocked by what I see. I do not know how to live. I only know how to exist.

I'm starting to sound pretty pathetic to myself.

Yeah life has many bad things. But you can still find good things, you make make your life good. Make your life something you enjoy living. You only loose that option to change by commiting suicide. Problems now wont be problems forever, those people bullying you, they will leave. You most likely wont see them again, if you go into university you will meet new people. Maybe you click, and find people you actually consider friends.
It sounds cheesy as [censored] telling you, you can make a life worth living. But really your problems can be fixed. Some may require you getting help from others, others may take a long time. But you can solve them.

» Sun May 13, 2012 2:58 pm

Uhm, you know what guys. We have wandered into some uncomfortable territory, where people are semi-arm-chair diagnosing some stuff... and stuff. This is not good.