A few years ago I was hospitalized at UNC (for psychological reasons, I won't go into depth because I'm lazy), and only had 'school' for one hour at a time every other day. They couldn't ever get a hold of my teachers, so I never did any real work. One day, we did a power point on owls. I choose some black owl with large, red eyes and typed such things as "I will devour your eternal soul". My psychologist found this disturbing. Now, I had always took some pleasure in saying things of that ilk and never thought it odd. My favorite one as of late being "Soul crushing is my favorite sport, right next to dream smashing." It just makes me feel good. I'm normally very good with introspection, but I'm sleepy and don't feel like thinking for myself right now. So I'll have the forums do the thinking for me. Make it known if you say similar things, pretty please.

It might just be that I have a knack for black comedy and that is how I desensitize myself to...yeah, no. I'm sleepy and don't feel like thinking big thoughts about little things.

I personally have a tendency to find others' problems to be a little amusing from time to time. I also didn't really care about the bombing/shooting that occurred here in Norway last summer. I didn't get shot, why the hell should I care?

I make morbid jokes all the time, most of them involve newborns, and [censored].

I feel you. Its not so much that I'm apathetic towards suffering as it is that I just feel nothing for people who aren't already close to me. People on the news are just statistics. I also find some joy in other peoples petty issues, something that I thought nothing of until it cost me a very valuable relationship. I try to look at it from their perspective now, but it still just seems minute to me.

"I guess dark humor isn't everybody's cup of liquefied baby."

That doesn't sound morbid at all. Just like random internet crap that people write all the time and think it's funny.
I doubt anyone would take you seriously and be freaked out if you said that, or wrote it on a owl. They'd probably just not care, or think you have aweful humour.

I tend to laugh at others miseries provided they're miniscule things, such as a girl boohooing her true love left her, even though it was only a week long relationship...

Baby i mikrob?lgeovn.

Prone to be shouted out when drunk.

Being objective and putting myself in others' perspective has never really been a problem for me. But at the end of the day, I can only truly see things from my perspective, and from where I'm at, I just don't care. Sometimes not even about my own wellbeing. But I get what you mean. "Don't know them, don't care", a very prevalent mentality these days really.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAwnbE2k9uw

That's why I was a bit surprised when a psychologist told me it disturbed him. He didn't seem like the easily bothered type either.

Never met someone who says such things who wasn't transparently trying to be edgy.

Me and my friend likes to make up morbid stories about people we know who we dislike, or in general is a [censored]. It's an awful thing to do but it gives us something to laugh about. I don't see why a psychologist would react to what you described.

I'm guilty of this. Less so recently.

No but one of my firends does all the time. It's kind of weird. I don't know if he does it to be funny or just for attention.

Going off my own experiences, its probably a mix of both. Of course, there is no way to want somebody to pay attention to you without being an attention [censored] in most peoples minds. So just saying what you want somebody to hear out loud doesn't really work, need to be a bit more sneaky about it.

I hate being the center of attention, I used to just skip classes if I was late for fear of everybody staring at me when I walked in. I just want somebody to eat all the crap that gets stored up in my head on occasion.

This forums tends to help too. Anybody who is here is here to discuss things, and thereby here to have somebody pay attention to what they think about a given topic and pay attention to another's thoughts in return.

No, not particularly. I have a bit of a regenerative saccharine core to me. I take joy in joy for joy's sake.

Psychologists like to compare everything to the "normal", and obviously your red eyed owl was not "normal". They have to take things at face value though since they don't have mind readers, so all he saw was a red eyed owl and the words "I will devour your soul" without any of the internal context as to why you made that. So now he has to try to extrapolate that context. Part of psychology is to figure out what makes us do and think the things we do and think.

All humans are suspect to schadenfreude though. Part of our nature.

You will cringe when you are older and realize how pretentious purposefully outre behavior was. But... rite of passage and all that.

I suppose so. Humor is often a mechanism to play things down, or play things up so much that they are internally played down. Might have something to do with my general apathy to people who died one thousand miles away from me.





I cringe at most things younger versions of me have done, so that'll likely be the case in a few years . I kind of hope not, though, as its one of the few things I like about myself.

In most cases, sure. But some people are what they are.

The norway bombing and junk like that doesn't bother me. Its the [censored] that does :/

What does it rhyme with?

Uh forcing six upon someone else.

I was reading through this thread, not knowing how to respond with tact. I'll just quote this instead.

To the OP: No.

You could have said graqe.

I find what you said to be disturbingly lame. Besides the fact that I personally don't think your sort of "morbid" commentary is funny, I don't think it's a bad sign.

However, genuine mental obsession with soul crushing, frequent visualization of yourself as a "soul crusher", under-developed self censorship skills, or an over-reliance on these sorts of statements when interacting with others, are all bad signs. I'm not saying that you're exhibiting any of them, but you might want to check. That might be what your counselor was really reacting to.

In Norwegian, graqe minus the g means burp.

That's kinda [censored] up.