» Sat May 28, 2011 3:50 am
This happened when I was an advlt, and it's still kind of freaky. This is why I have a snack before I go to bed. So I don't hallucinate.
Had stayed up all night with the boyfriend engaging in romantic activities , until we both fell asleep in the living room. I was sober, no substances, nothing. Just tired from all the activity. I should have eaten a peanut butter sandwich or something.
I woke up because I could hear something scraping the living room floor. There were long scaly fingers dragging the floor. This little monster looking thing was walking round the living room. He looked scaly, drippy, and made of rotten things. I went to sit up, but he ran his scaly fingers over my head and grinned. I wan't afraid of him, it was more like a caress. Like a parent checking on a child who has fallen asleep in front of the television.
He frowned and went over to the boyfriend, and he did not look pleased. I said "don't".
He told me not to worry. He also told me he and the BF only ate dead girls. And to watch out for him, he was going to hurt me. (At this point, I figured I was dreaming or hallucinating.)
Now, I was sitting bolt upright and the boyfriend woke up. And I was now angry. And my head hurt really badly. Excruciatingly painfully, horribly bad. I was holding my head.
I looked at him and said "Oh, so you only eat dead girls?" And I saw him for the first time as he was, bottom of his life, and dragging me down. And it made me feel cold and angry.
Then the windows, which were long and opened from the inside, in the middle, flew open. The bathroom cabinets flew open. My bf got up and ran into the bathroom, and told me towels and things had fallen out. Then I felt immnesely regretful for being angry at him, and everything stopped. No storm that night. No wind. It was probably a mouse. It was an old house.
I went to the kitchen and got some fruit, ate it, and went back to sleep. The BF, he was freaked out. Swore up and down I was telekinetic. I told him he was full of [censored], and should stop dropping illegal substances. I told him we both were quite tired and stuff like that could never happen. I told him he needed help.
Later on, he did indeed physically injure me. That was the end of that.
Our subconscious is a powerful thing, and somethimes things we don't want to recognize or admit come to a head in our dreams.
Or our daydreams.